What's the best way to right a wrong? I believe that when a person does something fucked up, then they have to take responsibility and take the necessary steps in order to correct the problem.
I went up to Orlando after my birthday and thought that I had good intentions to clear my mind and give some space. But I had forgotten that my friends would always understand that if I have a problem. Yet I did the wrong thing by just running away. Now I lost some of my good friends' trust and the thought of that makes me feel like an extremely horrible person.
Now I know what I need to do, take responsibility for my actions, learn from my mistakes and move on. The future is undetermined and whatever happens, happens. Shit happens, life happens, and all I can do is just focus on the present, absorb what was said and act upon it. Actions always speak louder than words, so I'll take the initiative and do whatever is necessary to gain that responsibility back. Things may change, but that doesn't mean change can't be for the better.
Tuesday, 10 March 2009
I haven't been too keen on updating my xanga I guess since not a whole lot has happened in my life. I read some other people's blogs stating they can't believe it's been 3 months into the new year and already we sprung forward so time goes faster and sooner or later it'll be a whole decade of the this millennium!
My new year's resolution was to go back to school and land a new job. I have accomplished both! Yes, I took a Human Resources Certification class to brush up on my HR knowledge (and hopefully help me land a job) and I landed a job working for the US Census. Although both are relatively small goals (the certification class is just that and the US Census is temporary) but those baby steps up the ladder of accomplishments is helping me realize that I still have potential to succeed.
So my next step is to land a career and hopefully go on and go to grad school.
Lately I been hooked to watching youtube videos, and I guess that helps me break up the monotonous days of my perpetual vacation. Also have been using P90X, this intense fitness regimen that guarantees results in about 90 days. I decided to check it out and so far I think I really feel the burn compared to my gym training. Also I can do it in the privacy of my own home and do it whenever I feel like it (no more scheduled appointments at the gym!). Maybe next time you'll see me, I'll be ripped...rawr! lol
Hopefully I'll have more interesting updates...^_^;;
Monday, 02 February 2009
The other day I went out with my roommate/friend to Super Target to pick up a few things and then met up with some other friends at the mall. So one of my friends says to me "Hey Cindy there's a guy you should meet...and he's going to be here today!" I was caught off guard of meeting a potential man! Then I asked my roommate about this guy who was at my friend's birthday dinner. Apparently he's not much taller than I. Which leads me to writing this post: Why am I going to be set up with short guys?
Obviously because I'm petite. I'm about 5 feet and a half to be exact.
So I meet the guy and I'm thinking "oh ok...he's nice, has a good job" and so forth but there is that looming disposition that maybe because he's short he's a good match for me. Why can't I be set up with a guy who has the same goals and maybe similar personality rather than someone who needs someone who is shorter than them?
Tuesday, 20 January 2009
Reflections
So it's the new year and new year brings new opportunities right? That's what I like to think. So this new year I made a resolution to find a job and to attend school. The latter is being done by me taking this HR certification class that is offered by a university down in Ft. Lauderdale. Although I was a bit disappointed that I have to drive about 45 minutes and sit in a classroom for a good 8 hours, I figured this can be a very valuable tool and investment in order for me to accomplish the former (finding a job). At least I hope the two go hand in hand to help me pursue a career or at least get my foot in the door (hey even just standing on the place mat outside the door would just do too!) and in this slumping economy, I still refuse to just take anything that comes. Albeit I come across a bit stubborn, I believe that I can find something no matter what. It'll take some time and a lot of applications.
Last year was a very sad year for me. I am looking forward to the new year...new hope...new opportunities...=D
Wednesday, 26 November 2008
ThankFul
What I am thankful for:
This year has kicked me in the ass like I have never been kicked in the ass before. It's almost a month before the year 2008 ends and then 2009 rolls around. I have had my battles this year with my job, my family and now my own future. I am really thankful for my family and my friends. I am thankful that I am in good health and finding a way to improve myself holistically so I won't have any health issues later on.
I came across this wiki how to and one of them is "how to improve your luck" and there was one section titled "turn sour milk into a smoothie" and after reading it, it enlightened me to keep my head up rather than being bitter for the rest of the year...
"Turn sour milk into a smoothie. So the milk went off? Big deal. There are still a lot things you can do with it, so do it. Instead of choosing to wallow and feel rotten about things that go wrong, look for life's lessons in the experience and look for new solutions that grow out of the bad experience. Dwelling on horrible events in your life gives them great power over you, stifling your growth and stomping on your luck. And when you view the world in this manner, even if Lady Luck does call, you're likely to sabotage it because that suits your negative mindset. Avoid the wallowing and kick yourself back into action. Sure, there are times in life when some events really set us back, such as the loss of a loved one, but far better to honor that person's memory by doing things in remembrance of them than using that loss as an eternal unhappiness trigger. It is really important to learn and grow from sadness and hardship rather than to let it harden us and turn us bitter." (http://www.wikihow.com/Improve-Your-Luck)
Even with how things are going today, with the dismal economy and thousands of more people being laid off, I believe that things will eventually get better. I am positive :)
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